Let the Good Times Roll:

Why do I Struggle?

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5/24/08 12:45 am

its been way too long! im actually just posting to see if matt really checks this haha MEH!

10/3/07 02:05 am

Volleyball, how i miss you!
What to do:
a) challenge myself and go for Co-Ed v-ball (division 1) and risk humiliation, especially in front of members of the opposite sex, or
2) stick with the women's v-ball (division 2) and remain as the all star girl who can serve LOL

on a side note.: i love studying in robarts at night! i actually get things done!

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10/1/07 10:58 pm

Wow, October already! Four weeks of school and Im SO FAR BEHIND! bad start...
I should really drop physical chem but im just waiting on synapse neurobiology to accept me, dammnit. Integration >>>> me :(
Im really dreading all the things AFTER thanksgiving, i.e. midterms and such.
I really need to drop chem.

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9/2/07 05:27 pm

It's been about 7 weeks since the last time i've written anything.
First, i would like to blame my memory. I could not remember the password since i was so used to it just logging on automatically.
Now, i would like to blame my busy schedule. Well... more like work. For the past few weeks, i've been given full time hours at the hospital. I dont really mind since im probably not going to be work as much (if at all) when school starts. To be honest, i cant wait for school to start. Four months of summer vacation is way too long! I cant even stand staying home anymore. I have to be doing something/ I need to have plans or else i get irritable. Right now, im taking a break from all my packing. By the looks of it, i have only managed to pack 1/4 of my life. This isnt very good considering the fact that im moving tomorrow. Oh well, im glad school doesnt start for another week so i can go back and forth btwn ajax and toronto. Of course my family is going to help me tomorrow. as well as liz and peter.

There are so many things i would love to write down right at this moment but it would probably take me an hour, time that i do not have so........ all i have to say is change is good.

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6/8/07 07:13 pm - My New Goal

I want to make the Dean's List by the end of my University of Toronto experience. Fuck, its going to be hard, but right now, at this moment, I think I can do it!

3.50, here I come!

Current Mood: Insane and/or Hopeful

6/7/07 12:05 am

Oh God, what have i gotten myself into...

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5/9/07 08:42 pm

the St Nick Reunion was Ffing AWESOME last night! We all met up at Montana and had dinner / drinks there. It was so good to see old faces, talk and reminisce! I love my childhood friends!

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5/6/07 05:13 pm - One More Day!!

One last exam left and second year will be over!
Summer, be good to me this year!
What a busy week i have ahead...

*edit*
this WILL be one of THE BEST SUMMERS ever. Mark my word.
FUCK YOU.

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5/2/07 12:00 am - How to Stay Awake:

1. Coffee
2. Coke
3. Cold Water
4. Lots and Lots of Excel Gum?!

May be i should try one of those energy drinks...

4/27/07 01:24 am - Am I Lucky or What?

His love for me is equivalent to his statistic mark.

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4/19/07 03:27 pm

*sighhh

So i'm finally sick, probably caught it from Benci, and it couldn't have come at a better time, seriously. My first exam is in two weeks so i have plenty of time to recuperate. I'm going back to mcds for a bit because im in need of money to pay off some visa bills. The reunion planning is getting well under way. I havent done much lately, being sick and all. I think the last "friend" i saw was Matt last week because i've been sick all this time. I've actually been studying, but i easily get distracted. I downloaded three movies: Pan's Labyrinth, Stranger than Fiction and The Last King of Scotland. They were okay... but not great. Anyway, maybe i should get back to my studying =)

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4/5/07 04:12 pm

I wish I had recorded all the equations I ever learned in my entire university career, whether it were for calculus, chemistry, statistics, physics, stats, physiology, biochemistry, etc. Now, I feel like I've learned nothing for the past 2 years.
Last night, I was browsing through a student housing site and I got this excited feeling all over. I am really going to try and push for this one.
Finally, I'm planning a reunion with some elementary school friends and I'm really anticipating it.

10/15/06 02:16 pm

Let It Slide- Joanna
(Written by: Christian Hamm / Alain Bertoni / Laura Zonka)

It's a touch without feelings
It's a kiss without love
It's the faith that we're losing
And the truth that we hide

It's a tear without cryin'
It's a word with no sound
A smile full of sorrow
And a love we left behind

Keep me from fallin', from fallin'
You got to set me free
Free from cryin', from cryin'
And now it's clear to see
See that I'm leavin', I'm leavin'
Cause it's time to let me be

Let it slide, let it slide
I know it hurts when I say good-bye
But the time has come
Let me spread my wings
Time to let me fly

It's a room full of silence
It's a day without light
Where anger keeps rising
And there's nothing left to say

It's your face at the window
It's the world pressing by
And the love that we shared
And the love we followed
Turned to pain along the way

Chorus:
Let it slide, let it slide
I know it hurts when I say good-bye
But the time has come
Let me spread my wings
Time to let me fly

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9/20/06 08:08 pm

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I would have spent a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I loved you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I can really relate to this song because it truly describes how I'm feeling right now.

Current Music: Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

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9/14/06 06:25 pm - Where were YOU?

September 14th, 2005

10:49 pm

"school was aiight. understood a lot in physics, until the ending. bah whatever. bio n chem went well. met up with matt around 130. one month, baby! received some beautiful roses. ttc'd to the CN tower. apparently its his first time haha well im glad i could share that with you. ate lunch/dinner there at the cafe, stupid reservations. im sorry if it seemed like i was forcing you to eat, but the salad wasnt THAT BAD! went down and we bought some chocolate pecan caramel cake. i ate the top, he ate the nasty parts haha. ttc'd back to u of t, and he bought me a slushy haha. made it for the end of the first lecture in psych, met up with liz during the break, then stayed for the second lecture. so HOORAY i dont have to go to school tomorrow.."

Well then, a lot happens in one year.

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9/12/06 11:03 pm

school has finally started. im really excited about my courses so far. my religion course is really interesting, based on early christian scripture dealing with things that made it into the bible and those that didnt. plus lindsay and lindsey took it with me. the labs in animal physiology sound really interesting but i dont know anyone in that course. biochem is basically protein synthesis and there are enough people in that class that i know. I have to memorize 20 amino acids and their side chains by next week. Stats... yeah maybe thats the one course im not too excited about, i almost fell asleep today, but that may have been due to the alcohol i consumed before hand haha. i also found out rhea is in that class so it should be interesting. human physiology isnt that bad material wise, but it could be better if the prof would speak with a little life in his voice. plus ahsan and jeff are in that class so its all good, AND every tuesday jay and i have a break together between 4 and 6 plus we take the 9:13 train together! i still have the rest of the week to look forward to. the only thing that really upsets me is how all my books total to lik $900. horrible!

in other news, i really miss him. it was the hardest decision i ever had to make. i wish i could be with him all the time... okay maybe not all the time but something close to that. i love him so much and it hurts like just the same.

Current Music: James Blunt

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8/27/06 06:03 pm

SO i am FINALLY unemployed! I worked my last shift at Costco today with Chris. Of all of the deli staff, i will probably miss him the most mainly because i have worked with him the most. My last shift at McDonalds was last week so its all good now. So yes, i just realized i only have 2 weeks left of summer vacation. part of me wants to stay in summer mode forever but most of me cant wait for school to begin.

Im really excited about my wisdom teeth getting pulled out! Wooo Hooo!</end sarcasm.

Oh well, gotta enjoy while i can. I went to lava lounge last in whitby. its like one big house party. a whole bunch of high school people were there whom i havent seen since time, ie. jamie saul, pg and julian dabrowski. fun times with those polish fobs.

Anyway, church and hopefully some good bonding time with the friends.

Waves....

PS

AIDAN!!! when do you leave for mcgill?!?!?!

8/14/06 12:06 am

one year with my boyfriend. how i love him so.

Current Mood:

loved

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8/7/06 11:52 am

Finally another update!

( Wild Water Kingdom )

( My 19th Birthday: Family/Friends BBQ )

( My 19th Birthday: Wonderland )

( My 19th Birthday: the Guvernment )

So besides those events, Ive been keeping busy. Besides working those full time shifts at costco, i volunteer at Sunnybrook at the cancer centre. This weekend was the long weekend and my family went camping but i wasnt able to join them so i had the house all to myself because i had to work all weekend. Yeah. haha no comment. I have the day off today and tomorrow. So until next time!

Current Music: Nowhere with You- Joel Paskett Emergency